Finally...The Sweetest Thing...

Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin to all! It's been awhile since my last post. Some quick updates:

• Got sick during da final few days of puasa (blame it on Uptown foods).
• Had a sad & boring Hari Raya cuz I didn't balik kampung (in Kelantan) wit my family & spent it all alone ere. I miss my lontong soooo much!
• Spent da whole day wit ayol watchin 'The Sweetest Thing' & One Tree Hill Series (da whole 1st season), & loads more at my place :D
• Karaoke on the eve of Hari Raya wit Anep, Sat & Mimie! Mawi World ruined da whole nite cuz we had da BIGGGESSTT fan in da house. Urghh!

What actually triggered me to write 2day was a song I listened not long ago, sang by Rossa (Cute Indonesian Singer) titled..err no idea. It was so soothing & meaningful that it reminded me about what happened last 2 nites between me & ayol. The song made me realize that I need to appreciate what I have or I will regret it 4 the rest of my life. Had a small arguement wit ayol & it hit me in the head that our relationship is losing its spark. It's been too long that da time we spend everyday, the moment we share every minute, the things that we say every second, seems so scripted & meaningless like a rutine already. Happy, sad, excitement, fun or even LOVE & other feelings are fading away. That's what's goin on in my head, & I know he's feeling it too. Sumhow it was so hard to get it out of my chest till that nite. It took me quite awhile to put it in words & spell it out to ayol. I thot it would be easy for him to understand & hoping he could finish my sentences. But he didnt & he had no clue of where my explanation was heading. I even tried to provoke him to admit it, "Do u still love me? Ya..", "Aren't u bored? No.." (wit a flat & sincere tone), but it was so obvious that he's telling da truth. He's all comfortable wit our relationship & excited wit what the future holds for us. He enjoys every moment spent wit me. He still misses me. He still loves me the same. I'm not trying to 'masuk bakul angkat sendiri' or sumthin, but rather shocked that he loves me that much & not even years or 'forever' can change that. He even promised me that he will do his very best to gain all my love again, & prove all his words for that matter. I felt so touched & in LOVE again! I don't think I can find any other man that loves me da way he does, that accepts me the way I am.. I'm juz blessed to have such boyfren in my life. He's truly my sweetest thing :D