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A simple yet complicated girl when it comes to stating a point in life & desires to be accomplished, cuz getting anything of any sorts seems to be significant, a naive & innocent girl wit a big heart but still cheeky depending on da mood, open minded & easy to absorb any kinds of info regardless its tendency to be completely crap, easy-going & out-going which makes sitting @ home is such a burden & a waste if not spending it wisely by hangin-out in mamaks, coffee places or even chillin in clubs, living a sumwat bz life wit work during da day & sipping tea & inhaling 'polluted air' @ nite (if not da whole day :P), hates being left-out, emotionally unstable ppl, & childishly back-stabbers, but rather keeping all dis dislikes to self cuz life's too short to get into trouble or start a fight, loves livin life in harmony wit loads of ppl 2 share da feelin wit...

Friday, September 22, 2006

Truth is...(COMPLETE)

I never ever had enemies in my life ever before, until I was accidentally involved in these two episodes of dramas, which of course supposedly created two enemies respectively. However the situation somehow initiated displeasing feelings to some people that are trivial to these events. Isn’t it ironic? This is what I think about the situations, but please read through and tell me if you think otherwise..


Episode 1

I had a very good or rather close friend (K) during my Uni years, which happened to be my friend’s boy friend at that time. Went lepaking, lunch and even shopping together. Yes, those were some enjoyable moments I had with that particular guy. As a friend, he was a kind gentleman and very thoughtful too. Until one day I discovered that he’s been cheating on his girlfriend for quite some time with his ex-girlfriend (bear in mind that his gf was my very good friend). Of course I did not favor it and wanted so much to tell his gf about what he’s been up to all this while. But at the same time I also didn’t want to be a busy-body. So I decided to keep my mouth shut and pretend I knew nothing. I felt stuck in between these two friends ‘the player’ friend and ‘the victim’ friend.

And of course after awhile everybody seemed to know it except the gf, and so one nite, out of guilt, K‘s best friend told the gf everything. And somehow K felt betrayed and alienated everyone including me.

After quite some time he somehow forgiven his friends and befriended them except for me for whatever reason. I seriously have not a single clue. So we became ruthless enemies ever since.

Result: 3 Enemies (why 3 u ask? I’ve not a single clue)

P/S: For the record, I accidentally got to know about his hidden agenda, which at that point I thought he was only flirting around for fun on that particular night. That’s why I agreed to keep it hush-hush, cuz truthfully I do that too. But when I found out that he was playing it for real with one-single girl who happened to be his ex, it hit me. Suddenly it all turned to guilt and a heavy burden not to tell it to my good friend (his gf). Had to tell somebody but not her (as to keep my stupid promise). So, I decided to tell her bestest friend and seek for advice. But none given, so I remained silent till it was over. So I did keep my promise (to him) right? Meaning I didn’t betray you (if you’re reading). So why am I the only one to be blamed? Juz so that person know I’m not like anything like you. I’ve never had scandals whom I date, only FLINGS. So do not call me a hypocrite. If there’s something else I did that I’m not aware of, please tell me. I apologize if I need to. So far that’s all I know. And to the people, who somehow hate me based on other people’s story, please stop thinking that I’m a bz-body cuz I am a part of it. Why don’t you stop being one and mind your own business. If it’s my attitude that you don’t favor, please tell me. Maybe I could fix it and all this hatred would just go away and we can still be friends. Nobody’s perfect and why waste time talking bad behind people’s back just to add up to your sins? Let’s just be friends and live in harmony. Truthfully I’ve long forgiven (if needed) each and every one that were affected by these incidents. But these people refuse to do the same and giving me hard times. Yea, it is hard to hangout together like the ol’ days. It is hard to be ok when the other party is not. So think about it. Take this write-up as a while flag from my side or whatever that makes you satisfied, I don’t care, as long as we’re good. But if hatred is what you choose, then stop diggin stuff about me and talk about me cuz its irritating and pathetic, sometimes SCARY. Puhlizzzz


Episode 2

I had a very good friend, H, whom I been lepaking for a long long time. Lepak in mamaks, karaoke-ing etc.. He somehow was interested with one of my friends which at the same time were in the midst of getting into a relationship with this other guy. Truthfully, I had no problem with all this fling-thing. But when it was official between my friend and the other guy, this H couldn’t stop trying to woo the girl or hang out with the girl, or so some of my concerned-friends thought. And so to rescue H by stopping him from hitting on this girl, as to prevent any conflicts between him and the girl’s bf, these two heroes came out with a ‘brilliant’ plan and urged me to execute it juz because I’m a girl. Actually they even had a long, thorough discussion as to go on with it or not, plus they even asked the H’s best friend for his opinion. And because the best friend did not suggest otherwise, we thought of carrying out the plan. Although I strongly refused to be a part of it, it didn’t leave me with any choice cuz I juz hate letting people down, especially my friends.

On the day of the buke puasa BBQ, minutes before the plan was supposed to be carried out, H’s best friend finally had advised us not to go on with the plan as he said it wasn’t necessary. He also said that H was aware of the situation and confirmed that he had no intention to go after the girl and ruin the girl’s newly-built relationship, as suspected by the ‘two heroes’. Fiuh! What a relief.

Somehow soon after the supposed-incident, H was acting so weird, like cold-weird. Months later, on new year’s eve, his behavior became apparent, to me that is. So a few days after, I invited him to lepak at some mamak, just to dig things that are going on in his head. He kinna said ok but no promise. Surprisingly, one fine night, he called and offered to pick me up at home. Everything was cleared-up. It seemed that his anonymous ‘friend’ had told him about our plan, which portrayed as depraved and a form of betrayal to him. Out of shocked at how he took it and out of a lil guilt, I apologize. He accepted it, I think. But I knew at that point, our friendship won’t be the same anymore. Although if truth be told, it wasn’t my idea at all, but there’s no use of pointing out fingers now, is there. At that moment, there were lotsa questions wandering around my mind, like: Who told him? Have he talked to the other two culprits? Why would anyone told him when the plan was only a plan? What exactly was told? Was his emotion influenced by the ‘narrator’? etc. A few weeks or months after, one of the two masterminds told me that he had been confronted by H and his ‘best friend’ (ohh! I thought to myself), in a very distressing and hostile way. His best friend was like his third ear that actually pushed his rage towards its peak during this session. Now I know who’s the biggest contributor to this unannounced fight. It was the best friend! The one who we’ve spared every detail about the plan with, the one who we’ve seek advice and approval with before its execution, the one who we trust and thought trying to help. Instead ‘he’ (yeap, a man full of bitchy attitude) turned out to be the enemy in the blanket, the fire stone, all this while. Moreover, I discovered that he wasn’t keen with me either, for whatever reasons. Actually amongst us three, he detests me the most. He justified his uneasy acceptance of me due to me being apart of every conflicts that have happened previously. He actually specifically mentioned every single encounters that I was involved in (yeap, he really kept track of my personal life), even though it had nothing to do with him. He doesn’t even know what it’s all about. He actually judged me based on other people’s story and making assumptions solely based on that? What the hell did I do to you? (if you’re reading). If you’re trying to be listed in my ‘enemy-list’ just to fit in the crowd which you’ve been struggling to get into, I understand. But do not drag others with you. That sucks. I enjoyed being your friend all this while and trusted your sincerity in our friendship. As far as I know, I’ve never done any awful thing to you that may have triggered such hatred. Why? And the worst part is, this person was being so pleasing and friendly (known as the joker with a big mouth) all this while, till now that is.

Result: 1 Enemy (the best friend. Who? This might shock you, cuz I was)



Episode 3 (additional episode, should it be a problem to some people if it’s ignored)

Yeap, there was actually an incident that I thot would be pointless to be mentioned here, cuz I didn’t think it created any enemies between the casts or even anyone related to them. But then again, you’ll never know…
So it began with a very well attached guy who was being a typical guy with a typical attitude, and the most prominent one was flirtatious aka. GATAL. He was hitting on 2 of my friends, or so me & my friends assumed. Cuz he had done it once too many times, so our assumptions were potentially right. The part where most of his friends were annoyed was his hypocrite-ism. For him, it is ok to go out with girls & hit on them BUT not ok for his gf to even talk or go out with guys, let alone hit on them.

I wasn’t that close to this couple but I always hangout with their friends. So their concerned friends had asked me to do them a favor of explaining this to the gf. So I did, not by elaborating what had happened between the bf & 2 of my friends, but juz verifying what the gf’s friends been telling her. That’s all. And I did it because they desperately asked for my help.
Juz when I thot that was the end of it, one fine nite while I was shopping in One Utama (yeap I remember), the concern friends called me up & asked for my help again. This time by telling straight to the bf’s face on what he had been doing behind his gf’s back, with the presence of his gf by his side. My refusal left them begging & begging, so I had to do it. And it went quite well cuz me & the bf remain friends, still exchange hi’s & bye’s & still hangout together. But somehow an individual who came out of nowhere (not even close to any of ‘em) has this eek feeling with the whole situation & blaming me for it. ????

Result: 1 Enemy (same as the above)


aaahh, feels gud to finally let it all outta my chest! So that IS the truth. Up to you to believe it :D