Not Even A Month?

Yeap, that thot came poppin 2 my mind the minute my mom told me that one of my kittens is dead due to some tragic incident. This time it’s not a typical one where my cats usually ran over by cars. There’s always some’one’ to blame. But now na’ah. My mom believes that Lala (the kitten’s mother), holds responsible for the death of her own child.

This morning, as my mother woke up, she went outside the house to do some gardening / cleaning (wateva). As she tried to feed Lala, whose resting quite comfortably in the cage, she noticed that one of the four kittens was missing. After a few minutes of searching & ‘digging’ thru the ‘cram & muddled’ cage, she found the grey-ish kitten lying lifelessly under a small flat container on which Lala was sitting on at that particular moment!

The messy cage indicates that there had been some chaotic situation goin on last nite. And I recalled last nite when I was about to enter the house, I heard Lala’s outraged voice, that sounded as if she was in a fight with some irritating cat. You know, that growling sound. But when I took a peek (didn’t want to interrupt ‘their conversation’, if any), there were no other cats there. So I thot maybe she was angry at her children & tryin to educate them in sumwat strict/aggressive manner. I stayed there for about 5 minutes trying to comprehend the whole situation, & I saw Lala trying eagerly to open the cage & let herself out. She looked quite furious, so I told my bro (Farish) to go outside & open the cage, for I didn’t want to dirty my hands by holding the cat, plus yea I was a bit frightened :P However Farish was too lazy to help. Can’t blame him as it was nearly 2 a.m.. So I juz went upstairs to my room & doze off. Next thing I know, the kitten’s dead!

How I wish I had known what happened earlier. & how I wish I understand animal’s language, especially cats! Maybe the cage was too small for them, that Lala accidentally sat on her own child. But how can she not notice that? That’s so irresponsible & absolutely impossible right?! But a female cat wouldn’t kill her own child, would she? & the most frustrating part is that the kitten’s not even a month old! Now I’m left with only three lil kittens :(

F.R.I.E.N.D. = E.N.E.M.Y.

Looking at it, in a glance, you wouldn’t think even once that these 2 words have anything in common. Not a single bit. Then again it’s no shock or impossible to learn otherwise. Of course, other than the simple facts that they involve people, soul and feelings, there are a lot more aspects to go with it. I am not saying that they are the same, thus we should appreciate their existence equally. But at some point, you’ll realize those yet to be discovered factors have similarities that you can’t tell the difference if the actual status of that someone is obscured from our sight. What the hell am I talking about? Where am I going with this? You know, I seriously not very sure, but I am certain that there’s a valuable point to these thoughts. Maybe that belief has motivate me to accept any human being who appears in my life & try to absorb their behavior, good & bad, without feeling extremely annoyed hatred or even disgusted. Though sometimes I do, but rather keep all this despise to self & try to be as reserve as possible. Nobody’s perfect & hurting peoples’ feelings are a waste for they refuse to accept it & tend to take it disapprovingly that may lead to disputes. & by the end of the day, guilt will haunt you for as long as it could.

In reality, people talks about everything and not surprisingly mainly about other people, regardless the status; childhood friends, best friends, school mates, room mates, house mates & of course other halves, and the list goes on & on. I watched the America’s Next Top Model the other day, and Tyra Banks was educating one of the contestants about self confidence and some motivations as to survive in the real world of modeling. And she made quite a point by saying juz these four words “Everybody talks about everybody”. And try combining it with these two words “Nobody’s perfect”, you’ll be all set to face the world or even the universe for that matter! Suddenly I feel this positive aura around me, with “you’re beautiful” signs in a form of bubbles, uplifting me gently, & I feel like smiling all the way up, like I juz inhaled a huge amount of smiling gas. And when I look down, I realize that the only thing that had kept me afloat was my fat ass! BOOM! I fall flat on my fat-turn-flat butt (catchy?). OUCH! Arghhh crap! Moral of the story? Never look down & set your aim high but at the same time don’t be so comfortable & arrogant once you’ve reached the top, for you’ll never know what the future holds for you. So hang in there with no despair (hey it rhymes?). You deserve to enjoy it while it lasts!

Ok I’m drifting far apart from the initial topic. There’s a lot more to be shared here, for I’ve learned a lot through personal experience & I really like to disclose some of em ere. But I need more time. So… *to be continued*

30th April, 2006

30th April, 2006, an eventful day for me and a whole lot of people. I’m sure.

It was a Sunday, where I spent my weekend in Penang with Ayol and 5 other friends; Dena, Ariff, Nivin, Aboy & Fir & it wasn’t juz any Sunday, it was my BIRTHDAY! HOOORAYYY! It was fun celebrating it away from home, and as far as I can remember, it’s the first time I spent it outside kl. My wish to eat all da delicious foods listed in my mind after the last trip, finally came true. And we managed to complete the scheduled activities: banana-boating, swimming at the apartment beach, visit Perangin Mall & nite market (twice), have ikan baker for dinner (tho it was a different place, thanx Aboy :P), have nasi kandar at Line Clear, Swatow’s Ais Kacang & Mee Sultan. All my plans were accomplished; accept Ariff, who didn’t get da chance to visit da Toy Museum (but sokay, knowing dat we’ll be going there again in 2 months time kan? :P). On d eve of my birthday, we had KFC while watching sum football match on Astro at the apartment (kewl!). Oh ya, the first gift I had was watching CHELSEA beat da hell outta MANCHESTER UNITED (3-0). It got me all smiley all the way back to the apartment from the nite market.

On other happenings, my cat gave birth to 4 cute lil kittens, which are yet to be named. Two of which are black in color, 1 grey-ish, and the other 1 a bit creamy (like my late cat KIKI), which I’m thinking of calling her KIKI as well hmmm.. Therefore, those babies’ birthday is the same as mine. So sweeeeet. I feel like a proud granny!


That morning, we received very shocking & heartbreaking news. Christopher Chiam Tian Soong, aka Chris, my schoolmate, also Dena’s bestest fren, had passed away, caused by some unpleasant incident. He was such a kind fren & the last time I met him, he was quite a changed man; well-mannered, soft spoken, totally a different character. He changed for the better.
*Chris, wherever you are, know that we will always love you & may your soul rest in peace…*