Healed Wound

Yeah that’s how I felt yesterday. Thank god the wound only lasted for one nite before it turned to scar, and healed soon after, this afternoon. So what’s the big deal with this wound anyway? I was actually talking about my grieve over Arsenal’s lost to West Ham last nite 1-0. It got me all depressed the whole nite till this morning.

Actually, I wasn’t so emotional when I started watching the game until the commentator announced that Arsenal will be in the top 3 alongside Man United and Chelsea IF they win this match. Suddenly all signs of pressure quickly developed throughout my entire body; heart pounded rapidly, goose bumps, cramped feet etc. It made the match looked so nerve wrecking, especially the part where Hleb wasn’t granted a penalty. Stupid referee! Urghhhh!

And so I don’t think I need to explain how I felt when the opponent scored the winning goal. One word, F***ed. And I think I speak for every single Arsenal fans, players and even the Manager, Arsene Wenger, who was furious with West Ham manager and argued most of the time during the game. He didn’t even shake hands with West Ham’s manager. I was so upset that it made me all moody the whole nite. Ayol was quite irritated by my behavior but thanks to his patience, he then consoled me with some ‘pep talk’:P And it did ease my ‘pain’ a lil bit.. hehe

This morning, as I was getting ready to go to work while listening to the morning crew, they announced that Chelsea had lost to Spurs 2-1! It means that there is still hope for Arsenal to reach 2nd in the premier league! Plus, they still have one match in-hand (as Ayol said) to get that extra points, if they win that is.. hehe So yeah I was relieved.
And to add to that joy, I am already ranked 11th in the Fantasy Premier League (hooray!) overtaking my all-time rival, Anep! Muahahahah Now that, really HEALED my WOUND.

So next goal:
Support Arsenal till they reach top 3
To reach top 5 in Fantasy Premier League

On a Tight Budget

If last month was a ‘love’ & festive month, then this month on the other hand, not as glorious. I call it a ‘budget’ month.

I am sure you can understand why, all the spending during raya: shopping (top to toe), distribution of ‘duit raya’, personal makeovers (hair laa what else?) etc. Even an advance paycheck and bonus couldn’t cover it. Although it’s different in my case, as I just got my pay yesterday, the result is still the same -> BROKE. And by broke, I mean I didn’t save a single cent for the whole month. Totally swerve from the path of a journey to my dream - to travel overseas (excluding Singapore). Sad huh. Had a few places in mind: Australia, Phuket & Bandung. But it slowly disappears one by one from my vision, which was once clear as glass. Ok laa a bit emotional. But the point is, I screwed up & now hafta work twice as hard and save twice as much to cover last month’s savings.

What frustrates me is that, I DID NOT spend on duit raya, DID NOT spend on makeovers and only shopped very few for tailoring 2 simple baju kurung and 3 pairs of shoes. OMG, I actually splurged all my money on FOOD? Can you believe it? What a waste. Oh ya, plus I rarely use the credit card now and started using my own cash even on toiletries. Anyhoo, eating out has always been my routine for as long as I can remember. I even hafta eat out during the whole week of raya holiday. So now it gotta stop. Not completely but reasonably, not to the extent that I’ve to starve myself to death.

So lesson learned and new strategies constructed:
1. NO shopping on unnecessary items (especially in Guardian/Watson)
2. NO in between meals
3. NO eating out when there’s food at home. Start calling home everyday to confirm.
4. Eat only 3 meals a day
5. NO food after 12 midnite

I plan to discipline myself by executing the above throughout the year, and see what happens. If all goes well and I’m back on track again, the strategy stays. Wish me luck!